tonight i was due to see an old collegue for drinks as my jobseekers paid out today and have some cash to splash. however he cancelled at the last minute becuase he said he missed the tv show 'Great British Bake Off' and wanted to stay in tonight to watch it on iplayer. this saddens and enrages me that a tv is more important than friendship.
i wish i had real friends and a girlfriend. no one sits on their deathbed looking back on their life thinking 'i wished i had stayed at home more and watched competitive baking tv shows'. people call me stupid to my face all the time, but sometimes i wonder if it they who are stupid. i wonder if stupid people wonder about stupid or clever people wonder about stupid people. i am going to bed this is too confusing and i am lonely.
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